I Felt Gay Attraction for Years and Didn’t Want It. Counseling Helped Save My Life.

May 21, 2019 by

by Ken Williams, Daily Signal:

For my entire childhood, I was confused about my gender, not fitting in with boys or girls.

Early on, I was exposed to gay porn and touched by neighborhood boys. When my sexual desires emerged, they were only for males.

Since I loathed who I was, I would fixate on one impressive male, wanting to just delete myself and replace me with him. “Gay” was my assumed identity, but I hated myself because I didn’t want to be gay. I wanted to fit in with the boys, not be sexually attracted to them.

By age 17, I was emotionally unstable. Searching for answers, I walked into a Christian bookstore in desperation. I left suicidal because there were no resources there that offered me real help.

[…]  If counseling bans had been law in 1989, blocking me from the therapy I was asking for, I probably would have killed myself. I would not have been satisfied with a government-mandated gay identity.

I wanted a wife and my own children, and I wanted friendships with other men without treating them as objects—both seemingly unattainable for me in the midst of my struggle.

However, despite the years of same-sex attractions and behavior, my life did change. I experienced change in my sexual desires.

I met a woman, we fell in love, and we’ve been married since 2006. She’s my only lover and best friend, and together we have four beautiful children. I no longer have desires typical of a gay man.

But laws banning the counseling I received to help me pursue a straight life would have prevented the rich life that I now experience with my wife and four children.

In addition, the Equality Act—which is set to be voted on this week in the House of Representatives—would outlaw the kind of counseling that helped me find resolution and peace, calling it “discrimination.”

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